well, I had the call-back (the moment I pressed the save button on the blog actually) and they've scheduled me in for some face-to-face sessions with a local counsellor. My first appointment is tomorrow evening (!!)
It's going to be hard. G was very interested to hear what I talked about with the phone counsellor and I tried to remember the conversation but it was all a bit vague. I guess I felt a little bit of a fraud - because I'm so good at hiding my problems I have also become quite good at hiding them from myself! Sometimes I really wonder what all the fuss is about... am I really troubled at all? Maybe its just that I'm not nice to G. Maybe I've just bred a whole load of resentment and contempt for G.
It would be very odd if I got the the counsellor and realised I was actually in quite a good mood, in high spirits, and didn't really want to dwell on loads of depressing or miserable things... I don't know...
Anyway, I'll be at the appointment tomorrow evening and I'll let you know how I get on.
Thanks for the comments by the way - nice to know someone is listening to this stuff
